Meshwell has been feeling pressured by me when I elude to any concerns that I have without allowing him the chance to prove to me that I have no reason to be concerned. For example - he claimed that he had plans on helping me move until I kept throwing in his face how he wasn't helping me. Well currently, I was pressuring him to see me for New Years and we ended up having this super long emotional conversation about it. It ended with hugs and a reassurance that I would see him on New Years.
He did not see me on New Years.
Not only that, but I received no call or text on New Years Eve night or even on NewYears Day until 7pm (which went like this):
Meshwell: Josi...
Me: Meshwell...sup
Meshwell: I really hope I didn't say nothin crazy to u last night
Me: We didn't talk last night
Meshwell: After the club?
Me: No
Meshwell:I asked if you were going to be my summertime boo or if it was gonna be too many niggas lurkin and I said some other stuff...
Me: We didn't talk last night
Meshwell: I thought I talked to u and terra. I was talkin to somebody on the phone last. I was so drunk last night the party was decent.
Me: So you just made it a point to share with me that you were asking someone to be your summertime boo (our thing)...?...That was pretty stupid.
Meshwell: Lol I'm not sure who then its for real really couldy cause I don't remember but I thought it was u. I was so bogus, I woke up at -his friend- crib at like 2PM today.
Meshwell: Bogus, stomach hurtin and headache and all
Meshwell: I still got a headache
Me: I couldn't give a fuck. I may not be your female, but I'm not one of your niggas. Leave me alone.
He didn't text me back that night or the night after. I didn't hear from him until yesterday night. He texted me as if nothing had happened. He must think this is a joke - but its not - its a wrap. When I make up my mind to let you go, its done. HE is done. There is no way that he was alone on New Years Eve - no way. So whatever chic he chose over me, he can go back to her.
ps: I have another date tonight! ;)
