My brother Mike called and made me feel so much better about my situation with Meshwell. He listened to me vent about why I was so pissed off at how Meshwell who has basically disregarded my whole existence as if I was the one that had a female call his phone and tell him about himself. Its not that I still like him, because I guarantee you I don't anymore. He has turned himself into a complete 'ass' in my opinion. The problem is that I have been feeling extremely disrespected by the way that he played me and then chose not to fully acknowledge me the days that I reached out to him (even though I should not have). I wanted to get him back.
I was nothing but good to him; did nothing but good things for him. What nerve does he have to think that he has the right to treat me like crap. But Mike explained to me last night that what I thought I had with him was not what I had with him. I was attracted to the companionship but was not really attracted to who he was-WHY?-because the short time that we spent together was not enough to find out who he was. If we were really friends-if he really knew me-he would have appreciated all of the things that I did for him-he would have at least attempted to salvage our friendship.
My brother is right. This guy is nothing to me and should be nothing to me. What he wants from a woman have to mature before he can appreciate who I was to him. I think I'm a little closer to closure now. I know I liked him way more than he liked me...so its just going to take some time.
