Yesterday I purposely got filthy drunk while alone at home so that I could just cry. I wanted to release all of the pain and frustration that I have been feeling these last few months...from work, from being homesick, from missing Meshwell, from feeling fat, from having horrible holidays, from being sick, and the list goes on. Crying it all out last night felt so amazing that every part of me feels as if I have a new start. I guess my New Year's resolution came unexpectedly. This is what I am going to do from here on:
- I am going to delete Meshwell's texts & phone number so that I don't have to look at him anymore
- I am going to make photography my priority- enough is enough. I'm turning this hobby out
- I am going to work hard at my job - enough to get show that I am improving
- I am going to eat healthier - after I go grocery shopping I will only allow 2 fast food meals a week
- I am going to start working out - either at home or at the gym
- I am going to start my vacations again
- I am going to make SIMS my personal life - lame - but it will keep me from being lonely
- I am going to make God the love of my life again
