Well, my patience has officially ran thin. I allowed myself to get to know a few people these past two weeks and each one has resulted in dissapointment. This week has served as a reminder of why I dont bother with people anymore. I miss spending time with myself anyway. I'm so used to hearing my own voice and no one elses that its become my comfort. It will be nice to rest in the silence and peace of my own thoughts again.
I ran into an old friend of mine this week. She was telling me about how well she was doing since we last spoke...she has two children, a man who she is happy with, a condo, is a Supervisor at her job and working on opening her own facility of some sort while she studies for her Masters degree. After I took her tale of success in, I thought about my own success or lack thereof. I was proud to hear that she was doing well but realized that I was ashamed at how I was not. Should I be ashamed? Should I be ashamed that I have yet to start in a career path? Or that I have not yet found myself? That I have no goals that I am reaching for anymore? Sometimes I wish that this world would hurry up and fold...like it is a long drawn out tv episode that I am craving to come to an end just so I can get it over with. I'm ready for a new season to begin...but I know that this is the only season that I will ever star in. Once this is over...so is life.
