To Stay or To Go

I'm so stressed out right now.  I've been thinking about the fact that my mom is getting older - she's almost 60 now.  I feel bad being so far away from her, you know? Like...it's not like she has a lot of years left where she will be in the physical condition to still be able to do a lot of things with me. I keep thinking about how much time I'm missing out on with her that I can't ever get back.  I know that moving here was important to me and something that I want long-term, but do I really want it at that expense? I know that parents get old and their kids don't make their life decisions based on that but my mom is the only person I know that really loves me.  I always hoped that by this time I would have found someone else that could love me at least a little bit like her.  But its not going to happen right now and I want to spend my time with her...I feel like I'm being ridiculous but its how I feel