Guess whose getting out of jail in April...yeah. I guess I'm supposed to stop my life and become his 'ride or die' again. Its funny how you regret things once you cant change him-and he does. He's lonely and wants me back but I know its for all of the wrong reasons. No one is there to care for him except for me, and that's why hes attached. I loved being there for him, but I cant let him hold me back in life. He says I'm wrong for that because I shouldn't let my "career goals" stand in the way of my hearts desires. But I beg the differ. Personal success is consistent with your contributions...love is not. And its not love anyway. Both of us got what we wanted at the time (admiration from his end and attention from my end). Besides, I can do better. I know that sounds bad because who am I to judge. But I lived my life intentionally avoiding mistakes because I cared so much about my future. Now its not my fault that he had the typical "i live for the moment" attitude that men have and thought that some good woman would still sacrifice her life's preparation for him. Get real. No more compromising. Speaking of compromise, me and Mr.NYC had a long talk and it wasn't that great. I compromised (after I just said no more compromising), but he did too. However, I wont know if it will benefit me until March 4. I dont know if love compromises in the way that we just did...I wih I could say more but I cant-not just yet.. .
