"Its nothing wrong with not thinking about money all of the time. Its just something wrong if you're not getting it." -wordz of a man I know
I think I have finally reached that point of understanding. Its just that money is the one thing in my life that I can control - and i need to be able to control at least ONE thing in my life, you know? Its so much that I want to do for myself that I cant do for one reason or another and getting money is something so easy to do that no one can take from me. And its ironic because I was always told that an education is something that no one can take from you. But even though they cant take it away, they can take away the opportunity to put it to use...as well as the money to invest into it. Well...today is a new day and I dont know how many days I have left but from this moment on I vow to myself to dedicate my life to me, moi, jossi.
On another note...
I'm in the mood for an old skool kiss. The type that made your stomach dip just thinking about it lol. Its too bad that those cant just be snatched up really quick. It has to have some type of history behind it. Bummer. I think I'll get one in a month though...that sounds ridiculous...but Im almost positive I will. Its weird how you go your whole life thinking that when you fall in love it will just hit you from the moment you meet him when in all actuality it grows on you. I just recently fell in love with someone I've known for so long; someone thats supported every up and down and emotional turn I've experienced. I didnt realize how much I cared about him until I almost lost him...all because I was so wrapped up in what I thought was my "soulmate". I'm so ready to be there for this man whenever he needs me that I damn near want something bad to happen to him just so I can show him how much I love him. I dont daydream about him like I did with my ex's because I experience something better with him. He crosses my mind all throughout the day and I cant help but smile when I think of him. Knowing that I have someone that puts my best interest at heart and cares as much about whats good for me as I do....is so much better. I think that daydream love is for the birds...this feels so much more stable...so much better. Im very "whiney" and he knows just how to be the man with me and keep me together and doesnt baby me. He keeps me strong. I cant really talk to anyone I know about him because they feel that his lack of presence physically in my life makes what we share null and void. I know better. I've waited my whole life for this man and I <3>
