Lately I've been thinking about my "I Am So Happy Now That" list. It's kind of like a vision board except its with words instead. I'm honestly using it right now to psych myself out because I cant really see anything right now that will make me happy. And NO I'm not depressed or anything, I'm just not motivated by anything.
I was thinking about the reason why I left Saint Louis and if I am really doing what I set out to do by leaving. I was definitely running away from issues that I didn't want to deal with. And I thought that leaving would make those issues go away. But they didn't. Everytime I feel like things are okay, something happens to remind me that they aren't and that I need to face my fears. I just don't feel like I'm ready. 