After I exploded in my recent blog, Meshwell turns around and invites me to dinner with him and his mom. Did I get to go? No...why? Because to add to my horrible holiday, I have a cold sore the size of a mountain on my face and would prefer not to meet someones mother like that.
Here's my thing though- he knows about my insecurity with my appearance right now. I even told him that I was planning on spending the holiday in my house because I was too uncomfortable with going out in public like this. So why would he ask me to come to dinner? It wasn't as if he forgot about it. When I reminded him about my appearance, he goes "that's up to you." It was as if he was giving me an option to do something that he knew wasn't a good idea and was leaving it up to me to make a decision.
At first I was happy that he was cool with me meeting his mom. And then after I gave it some thought, I started to wonder... "Is this a ploy to make it seem as if he cared enough about me to make an effort to avoid me having to spend Christmas Eve alone? ...asking a question that he already knew the answer to? You feel where I'm coming from with this? Like..."Let me ask Jocelyn to dinner so she can't say that I didn't ask. I know her answer will be no, so its a win win for me."
I guess I will never know...but I am thinking the worst because he never called me to verify if I was coming and it's been about 6 hours since they met up for dinner. SMH
