AhH Im Playing With Fire

o0oH boy am I feeling someone from the old days right now. I'm always feeling somebody but its very different when its someone from my younger days. It means I have some history with them that allows me to be myself and skip the drama that I usually deliver the first few months because I've already delivered it to them way back when. Anyway, this guy used to be my hearts desire, but he always acted like I was an irritating fly in a closed car with windows raised. But now things are proving to be way different. He is my ideal guy, always has been. He is cool, smart, laid back but fun, sexy, inspirational, motivating, such an intellectual, etc. One catch...he is not single anymore. And he seems to love the woman that he is with. I'm not a home wrecker...and we are playing with fire. But the more I keep my distance, the more hes drawn in. And the more he is drawn in, the more I am too. I gotta stop this before I ruin things for him. I'm going to stop...right after the conversation that we are having right now...or maybe right after we have our one weekend together... :o/