Is it really homewrecking if I had him first?? I know I said I would let this situation die, but maybe I should take a closer look into this. I did fall in love with him first...but then again, he fell in love with her first.
It wouldn't be so complicated if the history between us wasn't there, you know? That makes it so hard to let the idea of him go.
We were so young when we met.
He picked me up from my second job, wearing that lame leather jacket lol. We used to have these long, late night conversations in the car parked under the streetlight when I was in high school. All the way up until I was I was saying "screw college" and he talked to me about how important college was in an attempt to change my mind.
I don't know...a part of me feels like he is only reaching out to me because things aren't that great in his relationship. They argue a lot-and the arguments have a lot to do with what I've always considered to be his biggest fear...commitment. She is ready to take things up a notch...a notch beyond boyfriend and girlfriend. For him, that is a BIG deal and I KNOW that he is not the type of guy to make that move unless he knows that it is right for him. He's not ready...I know he isn't.
But thats the other thing...I'm closer to being ready than he is and I fear that if we were to try and take things a step further with us (If he was single, I mean) that he would still be unhappy because we are on two different chapters in our lives. I'm ready to move forward, he is not.
