Where is the gratification in this for me?
So to make things worse, I got a friend request on facebook today from someone in my past. Initials EW. He used to be an old "crush" and the feelings were mutual. I wasn't allowed to date back when I knew him, so pursuing him wasn't an option. But I was in love with some other guy back then anyway TG. Anyway...I accepted EW's friend request and went exploring on his page. He is married now, looking as good as I always knew he would. It made me think...and then made me jealous...and then sad...and then curious about TG. So I looked up TG. Found him. But his profile is viewable only by request. I put in a request. I'm afraid of what I will see when he accepts...married? In a relationship?
Why am I doing this?
