Back In Business

Today has started off perfectly. I gave a friend of mine a photoshoot and really stepped outside of the box with this one. I cant wait until the pics are posted. Not really much to say right now. No feelings, no emotions...just peace of mind. I'm going to embrace that. <3

ps. I am about to do my hair so I'll post a picture when I'm done. Its back to black. No more of this light brown stuff. My confidence is back so I can rock black again.

Farewell

Well Terah is gone and I had such a wonderful time with her here.  It was great seeing her and I'm sure she will come back to visit now.  If only I could make her move here! lol.  There was a tornado the other day in Saint Louis and I heard there was a lot of damage....the airport is closed down indefinitely because of the storm.  It feels weird knowing that so much damage was done to my hometown.  I'm glad I wasnt there to see it though. 

Today I have to work, which is great because I get holiday pay today (much needed holiday pay).  I finally just dont care too much about money and how much I have or need.  I'm just tired of caring-about a lot of stuff really.  I have to go get my laundry, peace!

Up Late...

Finally, the day has arrived and Terah is on her way to Chicago! I really miss her and cant wait to see a familiar face.  I have to pick her up around 6am so I need to stay up.  Much blogging I will be doing!  It will make up for lost time though, huh? Yeah, I know I have been M.I.A. for a while but its been a lot going on....actually, it hasn't.  I've just been too tired to blog.  :o/

I ordered some camera pendant necklaces from eBay and my favorite one finally came.  It looks like some voodoo camera though.  I'm kind of freaked out by it but I will rock it anyway. Maybe it will possess me and make me a hot photographer.  I'm working on some pictures that I just took of one of my coworkers.  We were working on a full frame beauty shot but I don't think I did so well.  I need to study again because my work is slacking.  Not that it was that great to begin with. I did find out what equipment I would need to make my photos look more professional and I only need about $1,000.  -Rolls Eyes-.  Not going to happen.  Not at all.

I finally had an accident on the subway/train.  I was getting off of the train and my leg slipped in the hole in between the train exit and the walkway.  Take a look at the bruise and try to ignore my ashiness.  Im scared to touch it so no lotion for me.  Nasty bruise, isn't it?  Back to the photo editing. -Deuces-

Same World...Different Eyes

Netflix has been dropping some hot movies lately.  I am definitely trying to make this a Netflix weekend but I have way too much to do.  I should get started but I'm still cleaning the house and cant seem to stop. Ugh.  I have so much on my mind right now and I cant get anything accomplished because I'm too busy planning what all I have to do.  Truly sucks being obsessively organized. 

I was riding on the train yesterday and saw a group of foreign exchange students who were just as happy as ever.  And I couldn't help but feel resentful at how they are able to pursue their education with a clear mind and even their job search with a clear mind with the grants and free rides that so many of them get just for being a non-citizen.  But I'm living in this country, have put in years of work to make a living, have proven myself in college with more than just a high GPA and got nothing but a couple thousand.  So now I'm stuck working and taking classes since I cant pay the loans back, which makes me too busy to even look for a solid career that can pay for the loans.  Not sure I understand the way things are done here....or better yet, maybe I do.   

Its amazing how this is the same world but it looks so different through different eyes.

I'm Back...Or Am I?

I've been away for a while...in the company of the one person that I said I would never deal with again. -shrugs- Go figure. Being around him was fun and it felt good...but unfortunately, one good weekend cant make up for the feelings brought on by a near month of rejection. No matter how much I like him, I just feel alone and tired right now...tired and weighed down...with no support. And when I needed someone the most, he wasnt emotionally able to be there for me the way that I needed him too because he was so fed up with me.

I dont know what Im going through right now...I feel out of place. I dont feel like I have a home anymore. And I'm starting to miss things that I shouldnt miss...and starting to think about people that I shouldnt be thinking about. I need a day to myself or a day with someone who can concentrate on me with me. At this point, I dont give a shit who it is as long as its someone from home who knows me. Im thinking about taking a trip home next weekend to exhale in familiar territory. I'm just afraid that if I leave, I wont have the courage to come back. I have a feeling that this week is about to be a bad one.

Closure and Target Errors

This is the last that you will ever hear me speak about mr.cherrybomb.  We are done talking. I'm sick of him making himself seem like a victim when he isnt a victim at all. I'm over it.  And because I'm over it, I am not in the mood to blog details. I just needed to share the update so when I start moving on, there are no questions as to where mr.cherrybomb went. 
My coworkers and I have bonded because of the drama from the one girl at work.  Its funny how things happen that way.  I dont have to work with her tomorrow either, which is a great start to a new week.  I got to do some overtime yesterday and am on my way to do some overtime today too, but I already spent some of my earnings on a $10 chinese food plate and a $130 shopping spree at Target. UGH, Target is the devil.  I'm tempted to take everything back but they all seem like such important items. :o(

• 4 bras
• 3 cute crew socks
• Napoleon Dynamite DVD
• Life DVD (I used to have the DVD and Cassette but somehow lost both)
• Bookbag (the same one that my blogbuddy has-when I saw it, I had to have it!)
• 4 adorable boy shorts
• 6 hipster panties
• A pack of 3 adorable boy shorts
• A tutrle ring
• 3 new earrings