I was starting to feel like I may never come back to this thing but someone just inspired me to write by getting me emotional. In fact, I think its been a while since I wrote anything emotional...
My friend died...and it hurts. He used to check up on me to see if I was okay; even if it was just once or twice a year. He used to say: "I've been thinking about you and whenever that happens, I need to check on you Jo Jo." It hurts to lose one of the few people that actually gave a damn about me. Since his death, I've been thinking about how empty I feel inside. I started trying to pinpoint when the feeling arrived and as stupid as this sounds, I haven't felt happy since I left college. I think I left the part of me that used to smile and laugh. Honestly, I miss my friends a lot. I know I tried to block them out for years now because of personal reasons but his death is making me want them back. Ugh God, I feel so much pain right now...I thought I had all the time in the world to respond to those messages he sent...and I didn't...
